dear diary,
yesterday was another bad day for me.
its day one that he's gone overseas.
i left so helpless when he said he was on the plane already.
deep inside i asked myself tons of things.
things that i wouldnt even answer it myself.
yesterday i also had to give up my double pay shift on Christmas.
cuase my holiday had to move forward from three days.

im not on cloud nine anymore. its cloud negative ten thousand.