life's been terrible. i'm depressed. i'm fake.

going to school, pon classes, stayed out late.

drowned myself with peers and mahjong.

stayed out late, coming home at 7,8,9.

lay in bed, talk on phone, one day pass.

the cylce repeats again and again and again.

putting on a strong front, vulnerable inisde.

fake laughters. fake smiles. heart aches inisde.

i'm tired, but i'm hanging on cause of one reason.

the reason why i've been like this the past weeks.

cause i know that my heart tells me iloveyou so damn much.

tear drops everytime i think about us.

let people say what they want. they said just let you go.

but i know deep down i don't want to.

i wish i could turn back time. change everything.

i wish i'm not famous. gossips spread fast.

i wish i was dead. i wish i was blind. i wish i was feelingless.

i wish i did appricate. i wish i didn't take everything for granted.

i want us happily again. i want us like before.

i want us strong and loving. i want us to be better.

i really do insane stuff for you. i ask myself why.

i skip meals. i skip medicine times. i waste my life away.

i don't know why i live for. i used to live to see you.

now all i do is to cry day and night.

even if the littlest thing that you do makes me happy.

those words hurt me. those words take me on cloud nine.

my life's like shit and i cry everyday.

i'm depressed. so damn depressed.